28th Sept 2011, 5.20 in the morning.

why am i still feeling sweet with this day and her 20th birthday ?

Unlocking the secret diary

what if i never gone oversea, would everything be different now?

Maybe a little longer for this?

Dont you guys think that those previous post look more like a shoutout? blog? ahh, whatever.  Decided to come up with a longer one for this. Celebrated my 21st birthday few days backed and it was really a fabulous one simply because of them.This is like my first birthday without having family around me but i've got all these awesome people here . feel so love to have them with me! One last thank you to all of you,  thanks for the dinner, the present, the card, the effort, the essay-long messages. you guys made my 21st a real good and memorable one.
Heart each and everyone of you
till then,
xoxo

21st

All is wish for is to get those complicated feelings over

Swear it again

if only i can stay here forever,

1086 days

Another 9 days to 20th

I didn't know we have come this far, is this the journey that you are still holding on all these while?

20.09.2009

Day six of spring

Happened to know something from friend this afternoon and i really don't know it affects me so much until i went out for a jog right after i came home from uni, then cooked myself one big pot of soup, had one big bowl of sesame oil salad treat from housemate and chocolate cherry pie from Jack. i have no idea but it seems like i have been messing up with my life, i don't know why. Everything doesn't seems right at the moment but yea, accept it! life is unpredictable.
I'm just feeling tired with everything and a getaway is pretty much needed. seriously. Speaking about my life, not to forget about my 3 major assessments on next week, i don'd feel panic at all, slacked so much and this is not a good sign i suppose?

Anyway i just consumed one bowl of  yogurt ! tooo much to do but too little time
I JUST WANT TO EAT, EAT, EAT AND EAT !!!!

ciaoz!

社会是一个最喜欢打碎人的尊严的地方
除了你自己，没人会为你保留它

it has been sometimes

Time is ticking real fast. In a flick of an eye, this is already my 6th months in melbourne! It has been exactly 6 months since i last seen you. I remembered because that night was mummy's birthday and i went out with you for late night movie. that was one of all the outings which i felt so unwilling to get down from car and leave,   because i know i wont be seeing you anytime soon until next year.  saying goodbye is never easy to me. not at all. I know things will change as time goes by. I know we will not be able to make it for this relationship. I know there are much more things to consider. I know it is hard. So i never expect, but too bad, i fell too hard and this actually hurts.Things went so shitty when i first came here, but you were the one who told me, anything just talk to me, i'll always be there for you, this is also why i felt secure all the time.But now? Ya, everything went well at the beginning but slowly, we talk less, skype less and just forget about texting. We don't usually text each other. i got lost again and again until the phone call we had, i know it's time to give this a fullstop. No one is wrong, and i always believe time will brings us to where we belong to. if things are meant to happen , it will somehow happen in the future. get it?
takecare!

I don't miss you. I miss the laughs. The smiles. The good times. The way things were. 
and one thing i'm clear with is,
you will never know how much those days mean,




3776miles away 

hola

couple days away to end winter break and it's time of the month to back uni again. Hopefully coming semester wouldn't be as stress as previous semester.
Anyway im just looking forward to get uni done by the end of the year. Not to forget about my gold coast, sydney, new zealand and bangkok !

go girl !

Everyone has a story, no matter how beautiful the cover may be, there's always going to be a chapter in there that breaks yours heart.

blissful

Just ring mom to confirm their arrival date in Melbourne on December, i know mom and dad have waited this day for so long. I really hope that i wont disappoint them (well, my results never disappoint them so far). I'm not whatsoever gifted daughter or smart ass who doesn't need hard work but still can score high marks in exam. I'm just an ordinary one, who study smart, hard and give the best in every papers i can.You dunno how tough was past semester to me.  When i'm really stressed out halfway studying, mom will always be one who support and back me up. I dunno why, but whenever mom told me that she has already transferred money into my account, my heart will ache a little. Expenses in Aussie is really crazy and i know it costs dad a bomb. I really hope that they think it's worthwhile paying  me to study here. Even though daddy says he can afford that, still i don't want him to work so hard anymore. Really. All i want is to pull through another semester and pass my very last stage in uni.
Anyway  just want to thank my parents. They give me the best for everything, always !

daddy mummy
ILY

now or later

A huge sigh of relief after i checked my results, you don't know how much it bothers me throughout this break as i really got the feeling that i will fail at least one unit?  When i told him about it he was like you always told me the same thing but your results ended up good ! OKAY, you just don't know how to comfort me. Anyway,. i'm now one step closer to graduate. one more semester to go, hang in there!  


did my face just get rounder?
xoxo 

This situation is too intense until i couldn't sleep tight for the past few nights..Why is exam so stressful?

3 days left to my first paper. Seriously? and the worst part is i have three papers in a row this time.  i have no idea where to go at the moment to release all the stress that built inside me. At least mom will be the one who drag me out to malls or for some good food when i was in malaysia. But im all alone here with phone and laptop! The room is just like a pressure cooker, the only thing i can do is study, study and still study. What's wrong! cant wait to get this done as soon as now. 

STUUUREEESS !